9:47 pm
3/31/08
My room
Do you ever feel like you're not going anywhere? I know that i'm making headway in all of my major goals, but it seems like i see no results. I know that i'm working hard to support myself going to school, living, and paying off some other expenses to our wonderful judicial system... and i'm going to school to make something of myself. But i feel no closer to the final destination day after day. But then again, if i compare my situation to what it was a year ago, i realize how much progress i have made. I went from being in the complete gutter, to working hard in both a workplace and in college, and i am stayng out of trouble. I didn't really put things into perspective like that before. Maybe i am running somewhere, huh? Thats what i am starting to learn about life, it's a damn trip.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Moving?
8:30 pm
3/30/08
My room
I went to look at a house with my mother and my sister today, out in smithtown. It was a nreally nice split level ranch that reminded me of a house we used to live in. Everything in the house was reletively new and updated, which is a welcomed change to the house we live in now. The best part of the house, for me at least is the lower level level. It consists of a den, bathroom, kitchen, bedroom, and another room. If we move into this house, the downstairs would be mine. It really works out well, because i have been thinking about getting an apartment but can't afford it right now. This lower level is basically an apartment exept for the fact that it is still connected to the house. I can still stay at home, at not pay as much rent as i would in an apartment, and basically have one. I'll have a bedroom seperate from a living room, and i'll make the smaller room a personal gym. I hope we get this house.
3/30/08
My room
I went to look at a house with my mother and my sister today, out in smithtown. It was a nreally nice split level ranch that reminded me of a house we used to live in. Everything in the house was reletively new and updated, which is a welcomed change to the house we live in now. The best part of the house, for me at least is the lower level level. It consists of a den, bathroom, kitchen, bedroom, and another room. If we move into this house, the downstairs would be mine. It really works out well, because i have been thinking about getting an apartment but can't afford it right now. This lower level is basically an apartment exept for the fact that it is still connected to the house. I can still stay at home, at not pay as much rent as i would in an apartment, and basically have one. I'll have a bedroom seperate from a living room, and i'll make the smaller room a personal gym. I hope we get this house.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
boring day
10:32 pm
3/29/08
My room
Today i am tired from doing pretty much nothing. I went to psychology this morning, and it went pretty well. It was the first class after spring break, so i wasn't looking foward to it. After class i came home, and made some lunch. After that i went down to the local barbershop to get a haircut. I have been going to the same plce now for aroung 4 years. There is this new guy there, who i allowed to cut my hair only once. I think he goes some serious drugs or something, because he is so skinny, and he always seems like he's high. I watched him cut three little kid's heads while i was waiting, and i witnessed three hair doos get ruined. The mother was not happy, and she ended up not having to pay for the hair cuts. Not good for business.
3/29/08
My room
Today i am tired from doing pretty much nothing. I went to psychology this morning, and it went pretty well. It was the first class after spring break, so i wasn't looking foward to it. After class i came home, and made some lunch. After that i went down to the local barbershop to get a haircut. I have been going to the same plce now for aroung 4 years. There is this new guy there, who i allowed to cut my hair only once. I think he goes some serious drugs or something, because he is so skinny, and he always seems like he's high. I watched him cut three little kid's heads while i was waiting, and i witnessed three hair doos get ruined. The mother was not happy, and she ended up not having to pay for the hair cuts. Not good for business.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
cartoons
8:49 pm
3/26/08
My room
I just finish watching 2 hours of cartoons, and it was painful. I had to watch them for psychology, to rate the violence in tv shows. I haven't watched cartoons in years, and i know why now. The Cartoons that kids watch are retarded. I have never been so bored, and amazed at the same time. I was amazed that these shows are even allowed to air. The messages that these shows portray, are absurd. I have to say that there is not as much violence in the new cartoons as the old ones, but the story lines are absoulutly mindless and stupid. I feel bad for kids these days.
3/26/08
My room
I just finish watching 2 hours of cartoons, and it was painful. I had to watch them for psychology, to rate the violence in tv shows. I haven't watched cartoons in years, and i know why now. The Cartoons that kids watch are retarded. I have never been so bored, and amazed at the same time. I was amazed that these shows are even allowed to air. The messages that these shows portray, are absurd. I have to say that there is not as much violence in the new cartoons as the old ones, but the story lines are absoulutly mindless and stupid. I feel bad for kids these days.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
summertime
7:34 pm
3/25/08
My room
I can't wait until it's summertime. I hate the winter, and not just because it's cold out. I hate the winter because it's so depressing. I also like the warmth of the summer though, don't get me wrong. The feeling of walking out of your house without worrying about what to put on to defend yourself aqainst the weather is priceless. My good friend who is in prison right now is getting out this summer. I haven't seen him in over a year, so i'm looming foward to that. I want to help him get his life back together, because he is most definately going to need the help. He was put away when he was 17, and he will be getting out this may, at 19 years old. It's weird, it doesn't seem like it's been almost 2 years since he was locked up. I remember the last day that me his brother and him were all together, like it was yesterday. We took a trip upstate with the guy that i work with at the deli. We had a really great weekend together, and then he was gone.
3/25/08
My room
I can't wait until it's summertime. I hate the winter, and not just because it's cold out. I hate the winter because it's so depressing. I also like the warmth of the summer though, don't get me wrong. The feeling of walking out of your house without worrying about what to put on to defend yourself aqainst the weather is priceless. My good friend who is in prison right now is getting out this summer. I haven't seen him in over a year, so i'm looming foward to that. I want to help him get his life back together, because he is most definately going to need the help. He was put away when he was 17, and he will be getting out this may, at 19 years old. It's weird, it doesn't seem like it's been almost 2 years since he was locked up. I remember the last day that me his brother and him were all together, like it was yesterday. We took a trip upstate with the guy that i work with at the deli. We had a really great weekend together, and then he was gone.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Dead at the deli
7:49 pm
3/24/08
My room
The deli was so dead today, it's not even funny. Surprisingly, my shift went by very quickly. Ususally when it's slow at the deli, the time seems to stop. Today i didn't want anything to do with the customers though, so that may be why it was so easy. I thought today was going to be a long and painful day of work, but it was actually not bad at all. The only problem with having no customers is that there is nothing to do, and when you have time to lean you have time to clean. My boss wasn't at the deli today, but that does not mean that he wasn't watching... It's scary sometimes, because there are like 5-7 cameras in that small store. They are all accessible via the internet. So at any time, my boss could be watching. Can you say Big Brother?
3/24/08
My room
The deli was so dead today, it's not even funny. Surprisingly, my shift went by very quickly. Ususally when it's slow at the deli, the time seems to stop. Today i didn't want anything to do with the customers though, so that may be why it was so easy. I thought today was going to be a long and painful day of work, but it was actually not bad at all. The only problem with having no customers is that there is nothing to do, and when you have time to lean you have time to clean. My boss wasn't at the deli today, but that does not mean that he wasn't watching... It's scary sometimes, because there are like 5-7 cameras in that small store. They are all accessible via the internet. So at any time, my boss could be watching. Can you say Big Brother?
Saturday, March 22, 2008
How i spent my day off
9:51 pm
3/22/08
My room
Today at seven in the AM, i got a call from the deli. I was informed that my co worker, the other kid my age called in sick. I know he isn't really sick, he probably got to high last night, and he didn't feel like working. He even said the other day, that he thought about calling in sick every time he had to come to work. Well anyways, i get to the deli this morning at eight, and i was not happy. You see, some how i managed to get three days in a row, in my busy life where i didn't have to do anything. That damn kid gets paid more than me, it pisses me off so much. He's always high, screwing around, while i always keep myself busy and productive. The fact that i came in and covered this kids shift, was not appreciated my boss at all. Actually the only thing that he said to me was that i wasn't working fast enough. It sucks, because i like my job, i just hate the people i work for.
3/22/08
My room
Today at seven in the AM, i got a call from the deli. I was informed that my co worker, the other kid my age called in sick. I know he isn't really sick, he probably got to high last night, and he didn't feel like working. He even said the other day, that he thought about calling in sick every time he had to come to work. Well anyways, i get to the deli this morning at eight, and i was not happy. You see, some how i managed to get three days in a row, in my busy life where i didn't have to do anything. That damn kid gets paid more than me, it pisses me off so much. He's always high, screwing around, while i always keep myself busy and productive. The fact that i came in and covered this kids shift, was not appreciated my boss at all. Actually the only thing that he said to me was that i wasn't working fast enough. It sucks, because i like my job, i just hate the people i work for.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Deli Blues
11:11 pm
3/21/08
My room
Last night at the deli was brutal. I was closing with my boss, and because of his injuries, he was miserable. Of course he had to take all of his frustration on me, and he was being an ass the whole night. At the end of the night, after we had closed and we were leaving the store, he told me that he needed me to work tomorrow from 12 to 3 pm. I have today, and sunday off, but i have to go in tomorrow for 3 hrs, it sucks. I didn't want to see that place for 3 days. Oh well, nothing with that place ever works out well.
3/21/08
My room
Last night at the deli was brutal. I was closing with my boss, and because of his injuries, he was miserable. Of course he had to take all of his frustration on me, and he was being an ass the whole night. At the end of the night, after we had closed and we were leaving the store, he told me that he needed me to work tomorrow from 12 to 3 pm. I have today, and sunday off, but i have to go in tomorrow for 3 hrs, it sucks. I didn't want to see that place for 3 days. Oh well, nothing with that place ever works out well.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
the deli is on it's last leg
8:49 pm
3/19/08
My room
One of the ladies that i work with hasn't been paid since feburary. First of all i don't know how she is still working there, and secondly i don't understand how my boss can go on like this and not expect her to quit. I think as soon as the summer time rolls around, someone is going to get laid off. If i was writing this a couple of weeks ago, i would be saying that i wouldn't have to worry about it. However i fear that the tables have turned on me, the family seems to have turned on me. For example, last sunday when i was working with my boss's daughter, we got into an arguement. I later found out that she was telling people i told her "i was fed up with with the place" and i left early. In reality she sent me home early. I'm sure my boss found out. The deli is driving me insane.
3/19/08
My room
One of the ladies that i work with hasn't been paid since feburary. First of all i don't know how she is still working there, and secondly i don't understand how my boss can go on like this and not expect her to quit. I think as soon as the summer time rolls around, someone is going to get laid off. If i was writing this a couple of weeks ago, i would be saying that i wouldn't have to worry about it. However i fear that the tables have turned on me, the family seems to have turned on me. For example, last sunday when i was working with my boss's daughter, we got into an arguement. I later found out that she was telling people i told her "i was fed up with with the place" and i left early. In reality she sent me home early. I'm sure my boss found out. The deli is driving me insane.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Need a place of my own
8:25 pm
3/18/08
My room
I really need to move out of my mother's house. Both her and my little sister drive me completely nuts some times. When it comes to most things, we completely disagree. For example, my litttle sister was supposed to get a job, when she turned sixteen. I had a job when i was her age, and money was not anywhere near as tight as it is now. My mother hounded me when i was even younger then my sister, to get a job. My sister said she applied to one place, and i doubt that she even did that. She's so transparent, and my mother is either to stupid to see it, or she just doesn't care. I can't afford to get my own place now, and go to school so i'm stuck in a pickle. I don't know if i should try to apply to another school and go away, or just stick it out for another 2 years. I just don't know if i can do the latter. I might be able to get a lot of grants if i'm out on my own, so i might have to check that out.
3/18/08
My room
I really need to move out of my mother's house. Both her and my little sister drive me completely nuts some times. When it comes to most things, we completely disagree. For example, my litttle sister was supposed to get a job, when she turned sixteen. I had a job when i was her age, and money was not anywhere near as tight as it is now. My mother hounded me when i was even younger then my sister, to get a job. My sister said she applied to one place, and i doubt that she even did that. She's so transparent, and my mother is either to stupid to see it, or she just doesn't care. I can't afford to get my own place now, and go to school so i'm stuck in a pickle. I don't know if i should try to apply to another school and go away, or just stick it out for another 2 years. I just don't know if i can do the latter. I might be able to get a lot of grants if i'm out on my own, so i might have to check that out.
Monday, March 17, 2008
st Pattie's day
8:39 pm
3/17/08
Computer room
Well today is St. Patrick's day, and it has been an interesting day. I had to work today, but it wasn't bad at all. I Went in at eleven, wearing a bright green "I heart new york shirt" with a clover instead of a heart. When i got there, my bosses son gave me a green hat to wear. As soon as i put it on, i looked like a leprechaun. We were seeling corn beef and cabbage dinners, and they were selling like hotcakes. It was reletively slow all day, so me and my bosses son, which is also technically my boss, just screwed around all day, and bullshited with an "off the boat" Irish guy that comes in. We actually got out of there on time, which is rare because every night, right before we close someone comes in and orders a sandwich, and we have to take everything back out, and reclean the slicers. Not tonight though, tonight we walked out the door at six o'clock.
3/17/08
Computer room
Well today is St. Patrick's day, and it has been an interesting day. I had to work today, but it wasn't bad at all. I Went in at eleven, wearing a bright green "I heart new york shirt" with a clover instead of a heart. When i got there, my bosses son gave me a green hat to wear. As soon as i put it on, i looked like a leprechaun. We were seeling corn beef and cabbage dinners, and they were selling like hotcakes. It was reletively slow all day, so me and my bosses son, which is also technically my boss, just screwed around all day, and bullshited with an "off the boat" Irish guy that comes in. We actually got out of there on time, which is rare because every night, right before we close someone comes in and orders a sandwich, and we have to take everything back out, and reclean the slicers. Not tonight though, tonight we walked out the door at six o'clock.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Bored with life
9:15 pm
3/16/08
Computer
I have found that i am bored with my life. I'm 19 years old, and i'm bored. There's something wrong with that. I don't really have anything to be that exited about though, all i do is go to school and go to work. I don't really have any real friends anymore. I have plenty of people that i can go and hang out with, but no one that i would consider real friends. Usually i have lot's of friends, but lately i haven't had anytime for them. I know this period will pass, but for now it sucks. I wish i hadn't screwed up highschool, because then i wouldn't have to go to suffolk. I could be away at school somewhere instead, somewhere new and different. It's okay though, i just have to take it one day at a time. Sooner than i think, i will be away somewhere, starting a new chapter in my life.
3/16/08
Computer
I have found that i am bored with my life. I'm 19 years old, and i'm bored. There's something wrong with that. I don't really have anything to be that exited about though, all i do is go to school and go to work. I don't really have any real friends anymore. I have plenty of people that i can go and hang out with, but no one that i would consider real friends. Usually i have lot's of friends, but lately i haven't had anytime for them. I know this period will pass, but for now it sucks. I wish i hadn't screwed up highschool, because then i wouldn't have to go to suffolk. I could be away at school somewhere instead, somewhere new and different. It's okay though, i just have to take it one day at a time. Sooner than i think, i will be away somewhere, starting a new chapter in my life.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
hard to fly with the eagles when you're surrounded by turkeys
9:15 pm
3/15/08
Computer room
Did you ever have really good friends, that after a while you realize that you have completely grown apart from them. That's what has happened with the friends that i ahve now. I used to be like brothers with this one kid, and now i feel so bored when i'm chillin with him. We used to think almost exaztly alike, ad now i've realized that i have matured and he's the same. It's not like this happened over night, but today just really showed me how different we are now. It sucks losing good friends, but i feel like if i keep hanging out with these people, they are going to hold me back. I have to make new friends that want the same things out of life that i do. I'm going to college, so it's a good place to start looking. I have no problems making new friends, it's just hard to get rid of the old ones sometimes.
3/15/08
Computer room
Did you ever have really good friends, that after a while you realize that you have completely grown apart from them. That's what has happened with the friends that i ahve now. I used to be like brothers with this one kid, and now i feel so bored when i'm chillin with him. We used to think almost exaztly alike, ad now i've realized that i have matured and he's the same. It's not like this happened over night, but today just really showed me how different we are now. It sucks losing good friends, but i feel like if i keep hanging out with these people, they are going to hold me back. I have to make new friends that want the same things out of life that i do. I'm going to college, so it's a good place to start looking. I have no problems making new friends, it's just hard to get rid of the old ones sometimes.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Today was a good day
10:30 pm
3/14/08
Computer room
Friday mornings at eight o'clock i have a computer class, so i went to class this morning. The only thing was, the professor didn't show up. The whole class waited 15-20 minutes for him, and he ever showed. I left with the last of the crowd, and got home at around a qaurter to nine. I went back to sleep and diddn't wake up untill around 12:30 in the afternoon. I felt really refreshed after that, i haven't slept that late in a long time. I worked out for about an hour and a half, and then made myself something to eat. After watching some tv for a while i started studying for a psychology test that i have tommorow. I probably studied for around three hours. When i study, i write down important information and say it outloud over and over and over again untill i can't write correctly anymore. It turns my brain into mush for a little bit but then i remember everything. It's funny, i was diagnosed with ADHD when i was a little kid.
3/14/08
Computer room
Friday mornings at eight o'clock i have a computer class, so i went to class this morning. The only thing was, the professor didn't show up. The whole class waited 15-20 minutes for him, and he ever showed. I left with the last of the crowd, and got home at around a qaurter to nine. I went back to sleep and diddn't wake up untill around 12:30 in the afternoon. I felt really refreshed after that, i haven't slept that late in a long time. I worked out for about an hour and a half, and then made myself something to eat. After watching some tv for a while i started studying for a psychology test that i have tommorow. I probably studied for around three hours. When i study, i write down important information and say it outloud over and over and over again untill i can't write correctly anymore. It turns my brain into mush for a little bit but then i remember everything. It's funny, i was diagnosed with ADHD when i was a little kid.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
oops
9:34 pm
3/13/08
My room
I'm sorry that i haven't entered a blog in the last few days, i have just been way to busy to remember to write the blog. I've been working alot of hours at the deli, and by the time i get home, im far to exausted to remember something like that. I hate when there's groups of days that just seem to be a complete blur, because i'm to busy to stop and relax. I know i sound like a broken record...but days like today just remind me of why i have to work hard in school, so that i make something of myself. I look at people around me that didn't set themselves up for the future, or screwed something up along the way and i can't see myself living hand to mouth like to many people do. I'm basically afraid to fail myself, because i know i have it in me to really do whatever i set my mind to. It's cheesy but true. I have ambition, and all i have to do is focus it on what i need.
3/13/08
My room
I'm sorry that i haven't entered a blog in the last few days, i have just been way to busy to remember to write the blog. I've been working alot of hours at the deli, and by the time i get home, im far to exausted to remember something like that. I hate when there's groups of days that just seem to be a complete blur, because i'm to busy to stop and relax. I know i sound like a broken record...but days like today just remind me of why i have to work hard in school, so that i make something of myself. I look at people around me that didn't set themselves up for the future, or screwed something up along the way and i can't see myself living hand to mouth like to many people do. I'm basically afraid to fail myself, because i know i have it in me to really do whatever i set my mind to. It's cheesy but true. I have ambition, and all i have to do is focus it on what i need.
Monday, March 10, 2008
i should get paid more for what i do
9:00 pm
3/10/08
My room
I should definately get paid more than i do at the deli. It's not just because i work hard when I'm there it's the extra things i do for those people. Last night i didn't get home until around 2 in the morning, because i expected to be going to work at eleven the following day. I got a call at seven this morning, it was my boss telling me someone called in sick, and he wanted to know if i could come in early. What did i do? I rolled my ass out of bed after having like 3 hrs of sleep and went to work. I get there, and do i get a "thanks for coming in?" No, actually i was actually told later that day in a "joking manner" that i was useless. I hate my job...and most of the people there. I work hard there, and i am definately one of the most valueable employees there. I used to work much harder, until i realized it wasn't appreciated. There is another kid my age there, and granted he has been there longer than me, so he gets paid more. But the kid is retarded, and is nowhere near as efficent as i am. Why should i work my ass off, just to get paid less than him? I understand that in the workplace, you have to swallow your pride sometimes, but this is crossing the line.
3/10/08
My room
I should definately get paid more than i do at the deli. It's not just because i work hard when I'm there it's the extra things i do for those people. Last night i didn't get home until around 2 in the morning, because i expected to be going to work at eleven the following day. I got a call at seven this morning, it was my boss telling me someone called in sick, and he wanted to know if i could come in early. What did i do? I rolled my ass out of bed after having like 3 hrs of sleep and went to work. I get there, and do i get a "thanks for coming in?" No, actually i was actually told later that day in a "joking manner" that i was useless. I hate my job...and most of the people there. I work hard there, and i am definately one of the most valueable employees there. I used to work much harder, until i realized it wasn't appreciated. There is another kid my age there, and granted he has been there longer than me, so he gets paid more. But the kid is retarded, and is nowhere near as efficent as i am. Why should i work my ass off, just to get paid less than him? I understand that in the workplace, you have to swallow your pride sometimes, but this is crossing the line.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
better days
8:30 pm
3/8/08
My room
Do you ever feel like you're being suffocated by stress? I hate working almost every single day, and still barely be able to live from paycheck to paycheck. I can't until the days that i don't have to worry about money as much, when i have started some sort of career for myself. That's why i need to do really well in school now, so i can get into a better school, and make something of myself. The life that i am living now is not what i see myself enduring for the rest of my days. I know that i need to change my ways, to enable myself to better my situation. It's so hard to always be looking ahead though, when i am in the tight situation i am in now. My actions have gotten me into some of the jams that i'm suffering for now, but i have already found a different mindset. I know that i have the power, and the intelligence to turn my life around, i just need to stay motivated and make the right choices.
3/8/08
My room
Do you ever feel like you're being suffocated by stress? I hate working almost every single day, and still barely be able to live from paycheck to paycheck. I can't until the days that i don't have to worry about money as much, when i have started some sort of career for myself. That's why i need to do really well in school now, so i can get into a better school, and make something of myself. The life that i am living now is not what i see myself enduring for the rest of my days. I know that i need to change my ways, to enable myself to better my situation. It's so hard to always be looking ahead though, when i am in the tight situation i am in now. My actions have gotten me into some of the jams that i'm suffering for now, but i have already found a different mindset. I know that i have the power, and the intelligence to turn my life around, i just need to stay motivated and make the right choices.
Friday, March 7, 2008
Computer class
10:00 am
3/7/08
Computer class
Right now i am sitting in my computer class, and the professor is lecturing about excel, real exiting stuff. We had an exam today on microsoft word, which was so easy, i didn't even have to think about it. After i finished the test, i went to the cafeteria to get an orange. After i got my orange, and a bottle of water, i sat down with a group of my classmates, and we got to know each other a little. We had some interesting conversations, from music, to drugs, to politics. We were also talking about how the professor looks almost identical to the father in "Growing Pains". I don't have work today, so when i get home, i'm either going to take a nap, or i'm going to workout, I am definately going to do both today, I'm just not sure in which order. At some point i also intend on calling up a friend that i haven't talked to in a while. She broke up with her boyfriend a while ago, a guy which i really don't like that much. So it would be nice to hang out with her without him for once.
3/7/08
Computer class
Right now i am sitting in my computer class, and the professor is lecturing about excel, real exiting stuff. We had an exam today on microsoft word, which was so easy, i didn't even have to think about it. After i finished the test, i went to the cafeteria to get an orange. After i got my orange, and a bottle of water, i sat down with a group of my classmates, and we got to know each other a little. We had some interesting conversations, from music, to drugs, to politics. We were also talking about how the professor looks almost identical to the father in "Growing Pains". I don't have work today, so when i get home, i'm either going to take a nap, or i'm going to workout, I am definately going to do both today, I'm just not sure in which order. At some point i also intend on calling up a friend that i haven't talked to in a while. She broke up with her boyfriend a while ago, a guy which i really don't like that much. So it would be nice to hang out with her without him for once.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
2 days of freedom...kinda
9:52 pm
3/6/08
My room
I have two days off at the deli, which is great. I think I'm starting to goa little crazy working with these people. The entire family is insane, and it gets under your skin after a while. I have to go to class both days, but that's alright. I want to get something done tomorrow and the next day that will help me in the future some how. I was thinking about going to check out some apartments or something. I also plan on getting in a few good workouts. I haven't had much time for exercise lately, and i'm starting to feel like i have less energy. It also helps me get rid of some energy from quiting cigarettes. It's been 3 weeks and 4 days since i smoked a cigarette. I have to say that i am pretty proud of myself, this is the longest i've gone with out a cigarette since i started. It feels good not being a smoker any more. It's a different lifestyle, one that doesn't rvolve around nicotine.
3/6/08
My room
I have two days off at the deli, which is great. I think I'm starting to goa little crazy working with these people. The entire family is insane, and it gets under your skin after a while. I have to go to class both days, but that's alright. I want to get something done tomorrow and the next day that will help me in the future some how. I was thinking about going to check out some apartments or something. I also plan on getting in a few good workouts. I haven't had much time for exercise lately, and i'm starting to feel like i have less energy. It also helps me get rid of some energy from quiting cigarettes. It's been 3 weeks and 4 days since i smoked a cigarette. I have to say that i am pretty proud of myself, this is the longest i've gone with out a cigarette since i started. It feels good not being a smoker any more. It's a different lifestyle, one that doesn't rvolve around nicotine.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
hell and back
7:07 pm
3/5/08
My room
Tonite the gut that i usually close with had to take a food service safety class, so he couldn't work. Instead i had to close with my boss's wife. Let me tell you, i don't think i have ever met a person like her, i can't even think of a word to describe her. She's mean, inconsiderate, selfish, immature, full of herself, and just not a good person to work with. She has a ninth grade education, and yet she's a "know it all". It's actually kind of pitiful. She used to be over 300 lbs, and then she had gastric bypass surgery, and now she is as thin as a rail. It's really gross, because she is almost 60 years old, and she wears the clothes that a girl 18- 25 years old would wear. The gross part is that she has a lot of loose skin now, and she wears these skimpy clothes. It's funny she always talks about how proud she is of herself that she lost all the weight. I have no respect for her, because i lost 110 pounds through eating right and exercising my ass off. She eat's all kinds of junk food still, because she see's the surgery as a fresh start to eat all the crap she wants. It's okay though, i get the last laugh, because she's a fool, and i'm definately not the only one who sees it.
3/5/08
My room
Tonite the gut that i usually close with had to take a food service safety class, so he couldn't work. Instead i had to close with my boss's wife. Let me tell you, i don't think i have ever met a person like her, i can't even think of a word to describe her. She's mean, inconsiderate, selfish, immature, full of herself, and just not a good person to work with. She has a ninth grade education, and yet she's a "know it all". It's actually kind of pitiful. She used to be over 300 lbs, and then she had gastric bypass surgery, and now she is as thin as a rail. It's really gross, because she is almost 60 years old, and she wears the clothes that a girl 18- 25 years old would wear. The gross part is that she has a lot of loose skin now, and she wears these skimpy clothes. It's funny she always talks about how proud she is of herself that she lost all the weight. I have no respect for her, because i lost 110 pounds through eating right and exercising my ass off. She eat's all kinds of junk food still, because she see's the surgery as a fresh start to eat all the crap she wants. It's okay though, i get the last laugh, because she's a fool, and i'm definately not the only one who sees it.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Inspiration
9:54 pm
3/4/08
My room
Have you ever had an idea for a movie or a book? Almost everyone has, i'm sure. I have them all the time. Tonight i had an idea, but i won't elaborate because i think i might try writing a short story at some point. I like to consider myself a fairly skilled writer, but i have never really taken the time to write on my own time. Well actually, that's not entirely true. I have wrote poetry in the past, as well as kept a few journals. However, I can't recall any anytime that i written astory just for the hell of it. I think i may start an outline for one, just as soon as i find some free time. If i am going to write a story, i want it to be well written. It needs to be organized, and something that really grabs the reader. I want it to portray some sort of a message, but i'm not sure exactly how to do it. I guess it's just something i'll have to learn as i go along.
3/4/08
My room
Have you ever had an idea for a movie or a book? Almost everyone has, i'm sure. I have them all the time. Tonight i had an idea, but i won't elaborate because i think i might try writing a short story at some point. I like to consider myself a fairly skilled writer, but i have never really taken the time to write on my own time. Well actually, that's not entirely true. I have wrote poetry in the past, as well as kept a few journals. However, I can't recall any anytime that i written astory just for the hell of it. I think i may start an outline for one, just as soon as i find some free time. If i am going to write a story, i want it to be well written. It needs to be organized, and something that really grabs the reader. I want it to portray some sort of a message, but i'm not sure exactly how to do it. I guess it's just something i'll have to learn as i go along.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Day in the life
7:46 pm
3/3/08
My room
I don't know how people live on minimum wage. I would kill myself. It's not even the money, it's the job you have you do. If i had to work in the deli for the rest of my life, i would most definately shoot myself. It's not even because of what the job entails, well actually yes it kind of is, there's no challange in it. I couldn't imagine doing a job everyday for the rest of my life, that didn't challenge my intelligence at all. I guess there are some people who have no motivation to do anything else with their life other than live from paycheck to paycheck...but not me. I want enjoy my job, and i want to make a hell of a lot of money well i'm at it. I'm not entirely sure what it is that i want to do, but i know i have the brains to do pretty much whatever i would be interested. I consider myslef lucky to be fairly intelligent, and don't think I'm cocky, but there are some really stupid people out there, and i don't know how they get through life.
3/3/08
My room
I don't know how people live on minimum wage. I would kill myself. It's not even the money, it's the job you have you do. If i had to work in the deli for the rest of my life, i would most definately shoot myself. It's not even because of what the job entails, well actually yes it kind of is, there's no challange in it. I couldn't imagine doing a job everyday for the rest of my life, that didn't challenge my intelligence at all. I guess there are some people who have no motivation to do anything else with their life other than live from paycheck to paycheck...but not me. I want enjoy my job, and i want to make a hell of a lot of money well i'm at it. I'm not entirely sure what it is that i want to do, but i know i have the brains to do pretty much whatever i would be interested. I consider myslef lucky to be fairly intelligent, and don't think I'm cocky, but there are some really stupid people out there, and i don't know how they get through life.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Day off
10:15 pm
2/2/08
Computer room
Today was my first day off in almost a month. I remember about 3 and a half weeks ago, when i started this non stop work week, i only thought it was going to be for a week and a half. To tell you the truth, i got used to working everyday, and it hasn't really bothered me to much, other than the fact that i have very little time for homework. To day i woke up at 10:30, somthing that i haven't done in a very long time. I got up, worked out and got an egg sandwich at the deli. After i ate, and drank a large cup of coffee, i went back to sleep for a few hours. I woke up, downloaded some music, and went to my friends. We played some basketball, since it was so nice today. After that we went his house and looked for some apartments. I thinkwe are going to try to rent out his girlfriends house, when her mother moves out. It's a nice haouse, and it would be almost fully furnished, which would save us a lot of money. We have a good amount of time to figure it out though, because we don't intend on moving untill at least the end of may. We still have to get the money situation straight.
2/2/08
Computer room
Today was my first day off in almost a month. I remember about 3 and a half weeks ago, when i started this non stop work week, i only thought it was going to be for a week and a half. To tell you the truth, i got used to working everyday, and it hasn't really bothered me to much, other than the fact that i have very little time for homework. To day i woke up at 10:30, somthing that i haven't done in a very long time. I got up, worked out and got an egg sandwich at the deli. After i ate, and drank a large cup of coffee, i went back to sleep for a few hours. I woke up, downloaded some music, and went to my friends. We played some basketball, since it was so nice today. After that we went his house and looked for some apartments. I thinkwe are going to try to rent out his girlfriends house, when her mother moves out. It's a nice haouse, and it would be almost fully furnished, which would save us a lot of money. We have a good amount of time to figure it out though, because we don't intend on moving untill at least the end of may. We still have to get the money situation straight.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Fast day
9:13 pm
3/1/08
Computer Room
Today flew by, i feel like it was like a half of a day. I know that sounds weird, that's because it is. I went to psychology this morning. It was a really interesting class, we talked about dreams, where they come from, and different people's theories on the subject. We also discussed drgs, and the effects on the mind and body. Class seemed so short because it was so interesting...time flies when your having fun. After class i went to the deli, for some reason i was scheduled to work from 12-3 pm. There was really no reason for me to be there, but i could use the money, so i can't complain. We had a huge order come in, so i was kept pretty busy packing things out. The three hour shift flew by, just like my class. After i got out of work, i went down to my friends house, and we played some basketball for a while. We went inside, watched some television, and then i decided to head home. I got home ate some dinner, watched some more t.v., and here i am now.
3/1/08
Computer Room
Today flew by, i feel like it was like a half of a day. I know that sounds weird, that's because it is. I went to psychology this morning. It was a really interesting class, we talked about dreams, where they come from, and different people's theories on the subject. We also discussed drgs, and the effects on the mind and body. Class seemed so short because it was so interesting...time flies when your having fun. After class i went to the deli, for some reason i was scheduled to work from 12-3 pm. There was really no reason for me to be there, but i could use the money, so i can't complain. We had a huge order come in, so i was kept pretty busy packing things out. The three hour shift flew by, just like my class. After i got out of work, i went down to my friends house, and we played some basketball for a while. We went inside, watched some television, and then i decided to head home. I got home ate some dinner, watched some more t.v., and here i am now.
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