Moving

9:14 pm
4/12/08
My room

The other day i got into an arugument with my mother and my sister, and i have decided to move out of my house. Me and my good friend are going to get an apartment together. That is the reason that i haven't written in my blog for a few days, i have been so busy. I decided that i was moving out. We already have an apartment that we can have in centerreach. It's a 2 bedroom apartment with a eat in kitchen, living room, and dining room. This one is available on tuesday, if we decide to get it. The only problem is that it will be like a 2o minute commute to work, and 40 min. to school. There is another one in saint james that i really like, it's much bigger, and updated. I really want this one over the other one, but i won't know if it's ours before tomorrow afternoon. The anticipation is killing me. I have everything packed up and ready to go, i just don't know where i am going.

Psycho paper

10:26 pm
4/8/08
My room

I have a term project for psychology (6-8 pages) due this saturday. I have just started to outline it tonight, and i have a long way to go with very little time. I know i still have three days to write the paper, but i have to work. I have been sort of working on the paper since last saturday, but i couldn't stick with a topic. I would read about one thing, get an idea for a paper, and begin to plan it out. A few minutes later i found somthing else that cought my intrest, and i would change my topic. The topic can be anything in our textbook, and i have decided on psychotic disorders. I don't care if i find something else that i would like to write about, it's to late to change again. I needed to take a break from my outlining, so i decided to write my blog. It's been a long day, of school and work and i am about ready to fall asleep. I just need to finish my first out line, so i know what i need to research online tomorrow. I guess i should get back to it, this way i can get to sleep...hopefully somethime soon.

unexpected surprise

9:50 pm
4/6/08
My room

This morning i received a phonecall that made my day. At first i was aggitated because i was awaken by my cell phone, alerting me to a call from the deli. I figured they wanted me to come in early, and i considered ignoring the call. Of course i didn't (becuase i'm a good employee like that), and i picked up the phone. My boss's daughter asked me if i wanted the day off, and of course i said yes. To tell you the truth, theonly motivation for saying yes at the time, was sleep. I woke up and i sort of regreted not getting up, because i could use the money, so i decided i would use the day to do school work. And that is exactly what i did, i spent the majority of the day researching for my psychology paper.

Self Actualization

9:40 pm
4/5/08
My room

This morning i had my psychology class, which is my favorite subject so far (no offense to my english class). I even think i want to change my major to psychology. We were going over personality, among other things, when the concept of self actualization came up. Self actualization is basically when you realize that you make an impact in your environment, and that you have the capacity to control your life. I always knew that i was responsible for myself, but i never looked at my life and ambitions the way i am now. We learned that people who can self actualize usually tend to reach out and touch people somehow. I've always had a feeling i was meant to do something, and it never felt as apparent as it does today.

I hate my god damn job

6:41 pm
4/2/08
My room

I hate my job, and i know all that i do is complain about it, but i can't help it. I actually love my actual job, but i hate the people i work for. This morning i took an order for an egg sandwich, and repeated the order back to the customer to make sure that's what they wanted. I finished it, and handed it off to someone to bring up front. I hear the customer say, "I didn't want cheese", but they didn't mention that when i checked the order. Than my boss yells back into the kitchen, "you dumb sh*t, you have to listen to the customers!", in front of a storeful of customers. I've taken a lot in that place, but being made a fool of in front of customers is not something i take lightly. I'm going to start looking for a new job. I have a couple of choices, my cousins offered me a job, one with a concrete company, and one with Grainger. Jobs with room for growth, benefits, and a place that would appretiate my intelligence, unlike the retards i work for.

Deli Drama

8:00 pm
4/1/08
My room

Well it's good 'ole April fools day, and it was a fairly good day. I had class this morning, at 6:30 am. When i got out out, i went to work to begin another day at the deli. The shit that goes on in that place, makes me feel like i'm back in high school. Everyone is playing each other, and you really CAN'T trust anyone there. There is one lady whom i do trust for most things, and we often talk and agree on most things. Even her though, i can't trust anyone entirely. It's really funny, because almost everyone is nice to each other, but then they turn around and talk poorly of the peron they were just joking around with. I'm just waiting for the day when the camera crew comes out of the firdge, shows me an assortment of hidden cameras, and informs me that i have been on a reality show.

running in place

9:47 pm
3/31/08
My room

Do you ever feel like you're not going anywhere? I know that i'm making headway in all of my major goals, but it seems like i see no results. I know that i'm working hard to support myself going to school, living, and paying off some other expenses to our wonderful judicial system... and i'm going to school to make something of myself. But i feel no closer to the final destination day after day. But then again, if i compare my situation to what it was a year ago, i realize how much progress i have made. I went from being in the complete gutter, to working hard in both a workplace and in college, and i am stayng out of trouble. I didn't really put things into perspective like that before. Maybe i am running somewhere, huh? Thats what i am starting to learn about life, it's a damn trip.

Moving?

8:30 pm
3/30/08
My room

I went to look at a house with my mother and my sister today, out in smithtown. It was a nreally nice split level ranch that reminded me of a house we used to live in. Everything in the house was reletively new and updated, which is a welcomed change to the house we live in now. The best part of the house, for me at least is the lower level level. It consists of a den, bathroom, kitchen, bedroom, and another room. If we move into this house, the downstairs would be mine. It really works out well, because i have been thinking about getting an apartment but can't afford it right now. This lower level is basically an apartment exept for the fact that it is still connected to the house. I can still stay at home, at not pay as much rent as i would in an apartment, and basically have one. I'll have a bedroom seperate from a living room, and i'll make the smaller room a personal gym. I hope we get this house.

boring day

10:32 pm
3/29/08
My room

Today i am tired from doing pretty much nothing. I went to psychology this morning, and it went pretty well. It was the first class after spring break, so i wasn't looking foward to it. After class i came home, and made some lunch. After that i went down to the local barbershop to get a haircut. I have been going to the same plce now for aroung 4 years. There is this new guy there, who i allowed to cut my hair only once. I think he goes some serious drugs or something, because he is so skinny, and he always seems like he's high. I watched him cut three little kid's heads while i was waiting, and i witnessed three hair doos get ruined. The mother was not happy, and she ended up not having to pay for the hair cuts. Not good for business.

cartoons

8:49 pm
3/26/08
My room

I just finish watching 2 hours of cartoons, and it was painful. I had to watch them for psychology, to rate the violence in tv shows. I haven't watched cartoons in years, and i know why now. The Cartoons that kids watch are retarded. I have never been so bored, and amazed at the same time. I was amazed that these shows are even allowed to air. The messages that these shows portray, are absurd. I have to say that there is not as much violence in the new cartoons as the old ones, but the story lines are absoulutly mindless and stupid. I feel bad for kids these days.

summertime

7:34 pm
3/25/08
My room

I can't wait until it's summertime. I hate the winter, and not just because it's cold out. I hate the winter because it's so depressing. I also like the warmth of the summer though, don't get me wrong. The feeling of walking out of your house without worrying about what to put on to defend yourself aqainst the weather is priceless. My good friend who is in prison right now is getting out this summer. I haven't seen him in over a year, so i'm looming foward to that. I want to help him get his life back together, because he is most definately going to need the help. He was put away when he was 17, and he will be getting out this may, at 19 years old. It's weird, it doesn't seem like it's been almost 2 years since he was locked up. I remember the last day that me his brother and him were all together, like it was yesterday. We took a trip upstate with the guy that i work with at the deli. We had a really great weekend together, and then he was gone.

Dead at the deli

7:49 pm
3/24/08
My room

The deli was so dead today, it's not even funny. Surprisingly, my shift went by very quickly. Ususally when it's slow at the deli, the time seems to stop. Today i didn't want anything to do with the customers though, so that may be why it was so easy. I thought today was going to be a long and painful day of work, but it was actually not bad at all. The only problem with having no customers is that there is nothing to do, and when you have time to lean you have time to clean. My boss wasn't at the deli today, but that does not mean that he wasn't watching... It's scary sometimes, because there are like 5-7 cameras in that small store. They are all accessible via the internet. So at any time, my boss could be watching. Can you say Big Brother?

How i spent my day off

9:51 pm
3/22/08
My room

Today at seven in the AM, i got a call from the deli. I was informed that my co worker, the other kid my age called in sick. I know he isn't really sick, he probably got to high last night, and he didn't feel like working. He even said the other day, that he thought about calling in sick every time he had to come to work. Well anyways, i get to the deli this morning at eight, and i was not happy. You see, some how i managed to get three days in a row, in my busy life where i didn't have to do anything. That damn kid gets paid more than me, it pisses me off so much. He's always high, screwing around, while i always keep myself busy and productive. The fact that i came in and covered this kids shift, was not appreciated my boss at all. Actually the only thing that he said to me was that i wasn't working fast enough. It sucks, because i like my job, i just hate the people i work for.

Deli Blues

11:11 pm
3/21/08
My room

Last night at the deli was brutal. I was closing with my boss, and because of his injuries, he was miserable. Of course he had to take all of his frustration on me, and he was being an ass the whole night. At the end of the night, after we had closed and we were leaving the store, he told me that he needed me to work tomorrow from 12 to 3 pm. I have today, and sunday off, but i have to go in tomorrow for 3 hrs, it sucks. I didn't want to see that place for 3 days. Oh well, nothing with that place ever works out well.

the deli is on it's last leg

8:49 pm
3/19/08
My room

One of the ladies that i work with hasn't been paid since feburary. First of all i don't know how she is still working there, and secondly i don't understand how my boss can go on like this and not expect her to quit. I think as soon as the summer time rolls around, someone is going to get laid off. If i was writing this a couple of weeks ago, i would be saying that i wouldn't have to worry about it. However i fear that the tables have turned on me, the family seems to have turned on me. For example, last sunday when i was working with my boss's daughter, we got into an arguement. I later found out that she was telling people i told her "i was fed up with with the place" and i left early. In reality she sent me home early. I'm sure my boss found out. The deli is driving me insane.

Need a place of my own

8:25 pm
3/18/08
My room

I really need to move out of my mother's house. Both her and my little sister drive me completely nuts some times. When it comes to most things, we completely disagree. For example, my litttle sister was supposed to get a job, when she turned sixteen. I had a job when i was her age, and money was not anywhere near as tight as it is now. My mother hounded me when i was even younger then my sister, to get a job. My sister said she applied to one place, and i doubt that she even did that. She's so transparent, and my mother is either to stupid to see it, or she just doesn't care. I can't afford to get my own place now, and go to school so i'm stuck in a pickle. I don't know if i should try to apply to another school and go away, or just stick it out for another 2 years. I just don't know if i can do the latter. I might be able to get a lot of grants if i'm out on my own, so i might have to check that out.

st Pattie's day

8:39 pm
3/17/08
Computer room

Well today is St. Patrick's day, and it has been an interesting day. I had to work today, but it wasn't bad at all. I Went in at eleven, wearing a bright green "I heart new york shirt" with a clover instead of a heart. When i got there, my bosses son gave me a green hat to wear. As soon as i put it on, i looked like a leprechaun. We were seeling corn beef and cabbage dinners, and they were selling like hotcakes. It was reletively slow all day, so me and my bosses son, which is also technically my boss, just screwed around all day, and bullshited with an "off the boat" Irish guy that comes in. We actually got out of there on time, which is rare because every night, right before we close someone comes in and orders a sandwich, and we have to take everything back out, and reclean the slicers. Not tonight though, tonight we walked out the door at six o'clock.

Bored with life

9:15 pm
3/16/08
Computer

I have found that i am bored with my life. I'm 19 years old, and i'm bored. There's something wrong with that. I don't really have anything to be that exited about though, all i do is go to school and go to work. I don't really have any real friends anymore. I have plenty of people that i can go and hang out with, but no one that i would consider real friends. Usually i have lot's of friends, but lately i haven't had anytime for them. I know this period will pass, but for now it sucks. I wish i hadn't screwed up highschool, because then i wouldn't have to go to suffolk. I could be away at school somewhere instead, somewhere new and different. It's okay though, i just have to take it one day at a time. Sooner than i think, i will be away somewhere, starting a new chapter in my life.

hard to fly with the eagles when you're surrounded by turkeys

9:15 pm
3/15/08
Computer room

Did you ever have really good friends, that after a while you realize that you have completely grown apart from them. That's what has happened with the friends that i ahve now. I used to be like brothers with this one kid, and now i feel so bored when i'm chillin with him. We used to think almost exaztly alike, ad now i've realized that i have matured and he's the same. It's not like this happened over night, but today just really showed me how different we are now. It sucks losing good friends, but i feel like if i keep hanging out with these people, they are going to hold me back. I have to make new friends that want the same things out of life that i do. I'm going to college, so it's a good place to start looking. I have no problems making new friends, it's just hard to get rid of the old ones sometimes.

Today was a good day

10:30 pm
3/14/08
Computer room

Friday mornings at eight o'clock i have a computer class, so i went to class this morning. The only thing was, the professor didn't show up. The whole class waited 15-20 minutes for him, and he ever showed. I left with the last of the crowd, and got home at around a qaurter to nine. I went back to sleep and diddn't wake up untill around 12:30 in the afternoon. I felt really refreshed after that, i haven't slept that late in a long time. I worked out for about an hour and a half, and then made myself something to eat. After watching some tv for a while i started studying for a psychology test that i have tommorow. I probably studied for around three hours. When i study, i write down important information and say it outloud over and over and over again untill i can't write correctly anymore. It turns my brain into mush for a little bit but then i remember everything. It's funny, i was diagnosed with ADHD when i was a little kid.

oops

9:34 pm
3/13/08
My room

I'm sorry that i haven't entered a blog in the last few days, i have just been way to busy to remember to write the blog. I've been working alot of hours at the deli, and by the time i get home, im far to exausted to remember something like that. I hate when there's groups of days that just seem to be a complete blur, because i'm to busy to stop and relax. I know i sound like a broken record...but days like today just remind me of why i have to work hard in school, so that i make something of myself. I look at people around me that didn't set themselves up for the future, or screwed something up along the way and i can't see myself living hand to mouth like to many people do. I'm basically afraid to fail myself, because i know i have it in me to really do whatever i set my mind to. It's cheesy but true. I have ambition, and all i have to do is focus it on what i need.

i should get paid more for what i do

9:00 pm
3/10/08
My room

I should definately get paid more than i do at the deli. It's not just because i work hard when I'm there it's the extra things i do for those people. Last night i didn't get home until around 2 in the morning, because i expected to be going to work at eleven the following day. I got a call at seven this morning, it was my boss telling me someone called in sick, and he wanted to know if i could come in early. What did i do? I rolled my ass out of bed after having like 3 hrs of sleep and went to work. I get there, and do i get a "thanks for coming in?" No, actually i was actually told later that day in a "joking manner" that i was useless. I hate my job...and most of the people there. I work hard there, and i am definately one of the most valueable employees there. I used to work much harder, until i realized it wasn't appreciated. There is another kid my age there, and granted he has been there longer than me, so he gets paid more. But the kid is retarded, and is nowhere near as efficent as i am. Why should i work my ass off, just to get paid less than him? I understand that in the workplace, you have to swallow your pride sometimes, but this is crossing the line.

better days

8:30 pm
3/8/08
My room

Do you ever feel like you're being suffocated by stress? I hate working almost every single day, and still barely be able to live from paycheck to paycheck. I can't until the days that i don't have to worry about money as much, when i have started some sort of career for myself. That's why i need to do really well in school now, so i can get into a better school, and make something of myself. The life that i am living now is not what i see myself enduring for the rest of my days. I know that i need to change my ways, to enable myself to better my situation. It's so hard to always be looking ahead though, when i am in the tight situation i am in now. My actions have gotten me into some of the jams that i'm suffering for now, but i have already found a different mindset. I know that i have the power, and the intelligence to turn my life around, i just need to stay motivated and make the right choices.

Computer class

10:00 am
3/7/08
Computer class

Right now i am sitting in my computer class, and the professor is lecturing about excel, real exiting stuff. We had an exam today on microsoft word, which was so easy, i didn't even have to think about it. After i finished the test, i went to the cafeteria to get an orange. After i got my orange, and a bottle of water, i sat down with a group of my classmates, and we got to know each other a little. We had some interesting conversations, from music, to drugs, to politics. We were also talking about how the professor looks almost identical to the father in "Growing Pains". I don't have work today, so when i get home, i'm either going to take a nap, or i'm going to workout, I am definately going to do both today, I'm just not sure in which order. At some point i also intend on calling up a friend that i haven't talked to in a while. She broke up with her boyfriend a while ago, a guy which i really don't like that much. So it would be nice to hang out with her without him for once.

2 days of freedom...kinda

9:52 pm
3/6/08
My room

I have two days off at the deli, which is great. I think I'm starting to goa little crazy working with these people. The entire family is insane, and it gets under your skin after a while. I have to go to class both days, but that's alright. I want to get something done tomorrow and the next day that will help me in the future some how. I was thinking about going to check out some apartments or something. I also plan on getting in a few good workouts. I haven't had much time for exercise lately, and i'm starting to feel like i have less energy. It also helps me get rid of some energy from quiting cigarettes. It's been 3 weeks and 4 days since i smoked a cigarette. I have to say that i am pretty proud of myself, this is the longest i've gone with out a cigarette since i started. It feels good not being a smoker any more. It's a different lifestyle, one that doesn't rvolve around nicotine.

hell and back

7:07 pm
3/5/08
My room

Tonite the gut that i usually close with had to take a food service safety class, so he couldn't work. Instead i had to close with my boss's wife. Let me tell you, i don't think i have ever met a person like her, i can't even think of a word to describe her. She's mean, inconsiderate, selfish, immature, full of herself, and just not a good person to work with. She has a ninth grade education, and yet she's a "know it all". It's actually kind of pitiful. She used to be over 300 lbs, and then she had gastric bypass surgery, and now she is as thin as a rail. It's really gross, because she is almost 60 years old, and she wears the clothes that a girl 18- 25 years old would wear. The gross part is that she has a lot of loose skin now, and she wears these skimpy clothes. It's funny she always talks about how proud she is of herself that she lost all the weight. I have no respect for her, because i lost 110 pounds through eating right and exercising my ass off. She eat's all kinds of junk food still, because she see's the surgery as a fresh start to eat all the crap she wants. It's okay though, i get the last laugh, because she's a fool, and i'm definately not the only one who sees it.

Inspiration

9:54 pm
3/4/08
My room

Have you ever had an idea for a movie or a book? Almost everyone has, i'm sure. I have them all the time. Tonight i had an idea, but i won't elaborate because i think i might try writing a short story at some point. I like to consider myself a fairly skilled writer, but i have never really taken the time to write on my own time. Well actually, that's not entirely true. I have wrote poetry in the past, as well as kept a few journals. However, I can't recall any anytime that i written astory just for the hell of it. I think i may start an outline for one, just as soon as i find some free time. If i am going to write a story, i want it to be well written. It needs to be organized, and something that really grabs the reader. I want it to portray some sort of a message, but i'm not sure exactly how to do it. I guess it's just something i'll have to learn as i go along.

Day in the life

7:46 pm
3/3/08
My room

I don't know how people live on minimum wage. I would kill myself. It's not even the money, it's the job you have you do. If i had to work in the deli for the rest of my life, i would most definately shoot myself. It's not even because of what the job entails, well actually yes it kind of is, there's no challange in it. I couldn't imagine doing a job everyday for the rest of my life, that didn't challenge my intelligence at all. I guess there are some people who have no motivation to do anything else with their life other than live from paycheck to paycheck...but not me. I want enjoy my job, and i want to make a hell of a lot of money well i'm at it. I'm not entirely sure what it is that i want to do, but i know i have the brains to do pretty much whatever i would be interested. I consider myslef lucky to be fairly intelligent, and don't think I'm cocky, but there are some really stupid people out there, and i don't know how they get through life.

Day off

10:15 pm
2/2/08
Computer room

Today was my first day off in almost a month. I remember about 3 and a half weeks ago, when i started this non stop work week, i only thought it was going to be for a week and a half. To tell you the truth, i got used to working everyday, and it hasn't really bothered me to much, other than the fact that i have very little time for homework. To day i woke up at 10:30, somthing that i haven't done in a very long time. I got up, worked out and got an egg sandwich at the deli. After i ate, and drank a large cup of coffee, i went back to sleep for a few hours. I woke up, downloaded some music, and went to my friends. We played some basketball, since it was so nice today. After that we went his house and looked for some apartments. I thinkwe are going to try to rent out his girlfriends house, when her mother moves out. It's a nice haouse, and it would be almost fully furnished, which would save us a lot of money. We have a good amount of time to figure it out though, because we don't intend on moving untill at least the end of may. We still have to get the money situation straight.

Fast day

9:13 pm
3/1/08
Computer Room

Today flew by, i feel like it was like a half of a day. I know that sounds weird, that's because it is. I went to psychology this morning. It was a really interesting class, we talked about dreams, where they come from, and different people's theories on the subject. We also discussed drgs, and the effects on the mind and body. Class seemed so short because it was so interesting...time flies when your having fun. After class i went to the deli, for some reason i was scheduled to work from 12-3 pm. There was really no reason for me to be there, but i could use the money, so i can't complain. We had a huge order come in, so i was kept pretty busy packing things out. The three hour shift flew by, just like my class. After i got out of work, i went down to my friends house, and we played some basketball for a while. We went inside, watched some television, and then i decided to head home. I got home ate some dinner, watched some more t.v., and here i am now.

Who's it gonna be?

10:58 pm
2/28/08
My Room

Today, the owner of the deli announced that when he came back to work after his full recovery, that he was going to lay someone off. This morning i was working with just the two older women. We were all talking about it, and they thought that he was just going to cut everyones hours, because he couldn't get rid of anyone, because the of they way the schedule works. I thought this was a pretty valid point. That is until my bosses so came in, and we talked about it. He told me that he could get rid of someone, because he would just work the hours himself, which also makes total sense, and makes me wonder why i hadn't thought of that before. I know that i'm not going to get layed off though (knock wood), i hate to sound cocky, but i am a pretty valuable asset there right now. Mainly because i am very reliable. It would make me pretty happy to see a certain individual go, someone who creates the most waves.

Apartment

9:17 pm
2/27/08
My Room

I Have two very good friends who are brothers, one of which is in prison. He get's out in May, and 1 condition of his Parole is that his older brother, my other good friend can't live in the same house as him. They are kind of partners in crime. Therefore he has to move out in may. I think i'm going to see if he wants to be roomates. I need to get out of my mother's house, and move out on my own. I need my own space, and to tell you the truth, it get's sort of frustrating living with two women. We always disagree on stupid things, and get into stupid arguments. I also want to get a dog, and that's not going to happen living with my mom. I'm just a little worried about my friend being able to support the financial responsabilities he's going to have to. I have to really think about it before i present the idea to him. I know that he will want to do it, but i'm not sure i want to yet.

Another long one

11:02 pm
2/26/08
My Room

Today was a pretty long day. This morning i had English class at 6:30, which meant i was up at five o'clock this morning. After class i went over to the deli to make myself some breakfast. After i ate my egg sandwich, i noticed that the counter was left unmaned, and there were a few customers standing there waiting. Of course i helped them even though i wasn't really working. I wasn't working because i was due in court at 9:30. I got in my car and turned the key in the ignition. When the car started the engine was sputtering. I checked my oil, and it was low, so i drove the car to Hess to get some oil. I figured after i got more oil in the car, the sputtering would stop...it didn't. The entire drive to the courthouse in C.I., i was praying that i at least made it to the court complex before the car broke down. I ended up maiking it. When I got out of court, and drove the car a few miles, the sputtering stopped. I think there may have been some bad fuel in te gas line or something. I again found myself in the deli, for an easy 7 hour shift. I got out of work at six, ate some dinner, and have been doing homework ever since. My kind of day...

The Moment of truth

8:05 pm
2/25/08
My Room

My mother and my sister are watching this show on Fox, called the moment of truth. It's a show where the contestant get's up on a stage with lie detector and they are asked personal questions on antional television. Are they Stupid? The episode thats on tonight is supposed to be so contraversial that they weren't going to air it. The girl on this particular episode is asked all sorts of questions about her marraige, and employment. The announcer keeps saying that her ansewers ruin her marraige. Wouldn't you think that someone who has something to hide, would think it was a bad idea to go on a show such as this one. Of sourse they are going to ask all the questions about things you don't want to talk about, it makes good television. Stupid People.

The Crazy Donkey

10:40 pm
2/24/08
Computer Room

I went to the crazy donkey in Farmingdale tonight. There was a drum competition, and i have a friend who was in it. Unfortunately, he didn't win, but it was still a good time. I "re-met" a girl that i knew back in early highschool, and I think we really hit it off. All the people in the competetion were really good, but some of them were amazing. I don't know how they do it. I used to play the drums, for a a little while, and i couldn't imagine doing what some of these kids were doing. There was one kid who was like 12 years old, and he was great, he could play amazing for his age, and he really had the crowd going. The judges of the competition were all drummers in famous bands, for example one of them was the drummer for Black Sabboth. I haven't felt my ears ring like that for a long time. It was a good night, i think i'm going to see Eddie Money in april, for my friends 21st birthday.

thank god

11:31 am
2/23/08
My room

I just got home from Psychology. Last week the professor was talking about how she couldn't give all of us our papers back, because she had to talk to us a boput plagerism. The entire time she was talking about this, her eyes kept finding me in the classroom, it was almost as if she was suggesting i was one of the people who plagerized. I came into class today ready to defend myself, if she said i was one of the people she was talking about. I worked very har on that paper. I was relieved to find out that reason she was looking at me, was probably because i scoored a one hundred on the essay. Thank Gog, i was not about to write that paper again. Well i have to get ready to go to work now, so i'm going to cut this blog a little short (only 1 minute).

snow day

2/22/08
10:37 pm
Computer Room

This morning i was supposed to have my computer class, and i completely intended on a going to it. I was actually on my way, i wasn't even sure if class was still going on, because of the conditions. I got a bout half way there, and the roads were bad, but driveable. Than i got onto a road that was barely plwed, and i would have to drve down it a pretty considerable distance. I drive a Nissan 24o SX, it's a very small, very light, rear wheel drive sports car. It's horrible in the snow. As soon as i got onto this particular road, i began to have problems. It wasn't untill i fishtailed and ended up in the other lane, that decided to turn back. I was pretty sure classes were canceled anyway. I was kicking my self for not taking 2 minutes before i left the house to check. When i got home i looked online, and discovered classes were not canceled, which is unbelievable to me, sine the roads were so bad.

Drugs are baad...mm'kay?

2/21/08
10:00 pm
My room

I believe that everyone experiments with drugs at some point in their life. Reaching an altered state of mind is something that humans have been doing for a long time. But you can cross the line pretty easily and and then you can pay with far more than you wanted to. I know i sound like your mother right now, but beleive I'm no saint myself. I went to a friends house, someone who i ahdn't seen in a couple of months. I knew she was using a certain drug for a while, but i didn't realize how bad she got into it. She seems like a completely different person, almost like she was out of it completely. Even her boyfriend, another pretty good friend of mine, used this drug and i could tell it was eating away at him. It's a really sad thing, because this girl was the sweetest girl when i first met her in high school, we even dated for a while. But than she started getting into hard drugs, and we kind of went down seperate paths. I don't know what makes people decide to do serious drugs, that you KNOW are terrible for your body, and more importantly, your mind.

Tired of living at home

9:02 pm
2/20/08
My room

The guy that i close with is a good guy. But i hate when there's fifteen minutes left until we close, a customer always comes in, and he engages them in long conversations. He knows what time, because he wants to get out of that place every night worse than i do. I don't know why he does it, theres times where he actually looks at the the clock, and with like 5 minutes left he'll ask them a question to start a new conversation.

Cigarettes

10:47 pm
2/19/08
My Room

Today is my eighth day without a cigarette, and i'm doing pretty well. The first three days were the hardest so far. I'm not really feeling the nicotine cravings anymore, it's just the actual habbit it of it. I don't know how cigarettes stay legal. It's proven that they will eventually kill you, and cause birth defects. You know this while you're smoking, and the power of the the nicotine overpowers your will to not smoke. It's a sick thing really, how people get get LOADED off of so many people dying. This isn't news to anyone though, it just amazes me that cigarettes are still around. Now that i haven't been smoking, i already feel better. I have more energy, and it's nice to not have to shape your routine around cigarettes. I actually hung out with some friends who smoke today, and i din't smoke my self. If i have the wilpower to do that, at this point in the process, i think my chances are pretty good. I just hope it lasts, because this isn't my first time quiting. I actually quit for about three weeks, about half a year ago. I don't know why i started again. Stupid...

Damn gremlins

6:50 pm
2/18/08
Living Room

I was supposed to be at the deli today at eleven a.m. A much appreciated break from my usual eight a.m. Around 10:30 i got a call and they I wasn't going to argue with that. I decided to get a workout in before i went to work, so i did that for an hour, took a shower and went to work. I got there and found out that we were closing at four, for presidents day, since it was usually the slowest day of the year. Me and my boss were all ready to go and close right on time since there was litarally 5 customers all day. When we were about to walk out people started walking in. Our policy is if the door isn't locked we'll still serve you...stupid. Well people continued to come in for an hour and a half. It's not like they were getting anything worth while, or hard to make. Most were getting coffee, cigarettes, or salads. Finally at 5:30, we were again about to walk out when an old mand came in, with all the lights out and the floors mopped, and of course he asked, like an idiot "are you closed?" (this happens almost every night). We said yes, but we can get you something if it's quick. He said it is, and than proceeded to order 50 dollars worth of cold cuts. Damn Gremlins.

long day

10:59 pm
2/17/08
Computer room

Today i worked a tht e deli for a few hours, and i got out early. I need to put new brake pads, so i had an irishman help me put them on. I know the guy from the deli, and also from my days of landscaping. He didn't charge me anything to put them on, so all i had to pay for was the pads. I saved hundreds of dollars, so i'm pretty happy about that. The other thing thats good about him putting the pads on, is that i watched him and now i know how to do it, so i won't ever have to have a mechanic do it for me. After i had that done i went to a friends house and chiiled for a while. Then i went home, and had some dinner. After dinner i watched The Kindom, which was a pretty good movie. I played some video games for a while, and here i am, about to go to bed.

good day

10:57 pm
2/26/08
Computer Room

Today was a pretty good day. I went to psych class and i had my exam. i think i did pretty well. There were some questions that i was unsure about, because i was unaware that the material was going to be one the test. After that, the professor let the class out early, so i went towork an hour earl. I also got to leave a three, which was great, exept when i found out that my break pads, were worn out, and i had to buy new ones. I'm going to put them on tomorrow. Once everthing was situated with the car, i went over to a friends house for a while. We went to the park that was around the corner and played some basketball. It was cold but it was nice to play basketball again, which is one of my favorite sports to play. When we were tired of playing out in the cold we went back to his house, and chilled out for a while. I left there around nine, and came home. I watched Saw III, which is a horrible movie, it's just really violent, but that's what seels this day which is pretty sad. I was about to call it a night, and of course i remembered i had to write this blog. So here i am trying to type anything of importance that comes to mind, so i know i got it done, and can rest a little easier. Unfortuneately, i've run out of things to say, so i'm ging to bed now.

my eyes hurt

10:20
2/15/08
Computer room

I have a psych test tommorow, and i just finish some last minute studying. I shouldn't say some, i was studying for three hours and i didn't even realize. When i stood up i could't see strait. For me the most effective method of studying is reading over the material, and than quizing myself on what i need to know. After i have done that i identify my weak points, and that i write and say outloud the facts i nedd to know over and over and over again untill i can't write anymore. It basically engraves the information into my mind. After about thirty seconds of writing the same thing, i find the rythem to the syllables. When i need the information later on, ithing and the "sentance comes out in that same rythem. All i know know is that i am confident that i will do well on the test, and i am mentally exausted. I think i'm going to go take a shower, and pass out.

Valentine's day

10:09
2/14/08
My room

It's Valentines day today, and just like everyday, i almost forgot to write my blog. Today was a busy day, but it could have been worse. Class was canceled this morning. I got to sleep a little bit more before going to the deli. All day today people were wishing me a happy Valentines day, and i was doing the same. Valentine's day is a funny holiday, seeing as it really isn't a holiday, it's a corporate holiday. For men it kinda sucks. Either your spending a small fortune on gifts for your sweethearts, or it's a depressing day, because you have no one to spend it with, that goes for women to though. Yes i am one of those poor SOBs who didn't have anyone to spend it with today. But i did give someone a valentine. This girl that works in the pizzaria a few stores down, that i have had my eye on for a little while. The only problem is that we have conflicting hours so she is never there when I'm at the deli. Today was my lucky day though because she was there. At first i was going to give her one of the heart shaped cookies that we sell, but of course we sold out of them, so i had to settle for a box of heart cupcakes. I brought them over to her, wished her a happy Valentine's day, and slipped her my number. Hopefullt she calls. I haven't been on a date in a while, i've just been to busy lately for any form of a social life. I guess i'll just have to wait and see what happens.

can't find anything

9:20 pm
2/13/08
Computer Room

We were assigned to find a couple of pictures that were weird, or showed something paranormal. I looked through almost every picure in the house and i couldn't find anything. So after i write this i have to go online and find some, it's going to be hard to find a picture that wasn't photo-shopped. Although i didn't find anything in the family collection of photos, it was nice to look at them. It brought back some nice memories, and some not so nice. It's funny, you don't realize how much you've grown untill you see your self from years ago, and you remember what you were like, or what phase you were going through. It's almost like reading entries from old journals, and you wonder, what was i thinking? It's even more weird to wonder if you will feel the same way about yourself today in a few years. Probobly will. Life is an amazing thing that to many people take for granted. A lot of people say that life is so hard, but that's what makes it beautiful. When there is a moment in your life that you experience true joy, it stands out from all the hardship, and that makes a good memory.

Desicions

7:40 pm
2/12/08
My room

Just like 5 minutes ago my cousin called me, and offered me a job. He works in concrete, and installing countertops. To tell you the truth it would be nice to leave the deli, because the place drives me nuts. And it's not like i'm a stranger to hard labor. I just can't screw my boss over like that. This is the second time i worked there, and he didn't have to give me my job back. The money with my cousin is probobly better, and i do like to be outside when it's nice, but the hours wouldn't work with school. I'm definately not about to drop out of college. I feel bad, though, because i really never talk to my cousin, and he was trying to help me out, i don't think he knows that i am going to school. The deli is a good job, as much as it drives me nuts, it's the best job i've had yet. By the time i finish my assosiates, i'll probobly be closing the deli by myself, and getting 13 to 15 dollars an hour, which is damn good for someone going to school. After i finish at sccc, i want to get EMT certified, and do that while i go to another school. That way I'll be making an actual salary, and have benefits. I think i would enjoy that to, all the action, of being an EMT i mean. I don't know we'll have to see what happens.

gettin old

9:50
2/11/08
My room

This is gettin old...everytime i go to bed and i finish reading, i remember i have to write this blog. I don't know why it is that i remember right before i am going to sleep. It's like my subconcious is trying to send me one last message. I also just remembered that i was supposed to study tonite. I didn't realize how forgetful i am. The test isn't untill saturday, but i want to be very well prepared. In highschool, i almost never studied, and i must say in most subjects i did pretty well, but that's not good enough now. The way i think about school now, is a job. I take pride in my work. If i want to make something of myself, than i have to do it now. Althogh i can absorb a lot of information while sitting in class, and listening, i do need to study, because i want A's, and nothing else. Well, i hate to not show effort, but it's been 10 minutes, i'm tired, and i have to get up at 5:30 for class, so i'm cutting this blog short.

Life in the fast lane

8:46
2/10/08
My room

I got off of work early today, which was nice, seeing as I really didn't want to be there. I went home, and it was only areound twelve o'clock, s i worked out for a while, had a nice lunch, and went to my friends house. When i arrived he told me we were gonna go for a ride with this girl from around the corner. She had to take care of something out in Port Jeff. Well, this was my first time in a car, with her behind the wheel, and most definately my last. At first it wasn't sooo bad, but than we hit 347. As soon as the light turned green, she sqealed away like a bat out of hell. She was flying, clocking at about 85-95 mph, in the short and decreasing amount of open road remaining. We were approaching traffic ahead of us, and silly me, i expected her to slow down. At around 50 feet away from the first car she slowed about 5-10 mph, and in the best way that i can describe, she seemed to slip inbetween 3 cars in two different lanes. Now keep in mind she is still going about 20 mph faster than everyone else on the road. At this point i'm having a good time, a little buzz od adrenaline i guess. I thought she was dodne, but than she decided it would be smart to drive literally inches from the car in front of us, and than cut off the car next to us, avoiding them by about 2 ft. By this point me and my Friend are telling her to slow down. Than she jsut started to screw with us. She takes her hands off the wheel, and pulls a peice of yarn out of her pocket. She asks if we want to play cats cradle. My friend is pleading her to put her hands back on the wheel, but she says "don't worry, i've got wheel with my knee." Now i have to admit i do sometimes drive with my knee, but never when i am going 75 mph (she had to slow down a bit due to increased congestion of traffic. Finally i told her that if she didn't slow down, i was getting out of the car at the next red light, my friend agreed. Finally she got the led out of her foot, and she let off the gas. The rest of the ride wasn't to bad, but i'll tell you one thing, i thanked my lucky stars when i eventually stepped out of the vehicle.

calm before the storm

9:50 pm
2/9/08
My room

Tommorow i start the work week. Not just any work week either, this week won't end for twelve days. I will be working everyday, because my boss got hurt, and the deli is short staffed. I don't even want to talk about it. I was actually about to go to sleep, and i remembered that i had to write my blog. Please forgive me, i missed a couple of days in the past, i am just so busy. I know it's not an excuse, but sometimes when i get home from work it just slips my mind. Today i had psychology, which is a good class. Right in the middle, there was a fire drill. I wouldn't have really minded, but it was freezing out. After class, i had a really lazy day, to prepare myself for the upcoming week. I slept for a good couple of hours, and than just watched T.V., and played video games. I have to say today was a good day. I don't really mind work, because i love to make money, it's actually one of my favorite things to do. I just don't want tall the hours to hurt my school work. That's the reason i'm going to school in the first place, so i don't have to work at a deli for the rest of my life. Baby steps, I gotta take one day at a time.

done

7:50 pm
2/8/08
Computer room

I've been working on an essay for psychology all day, and i just finished. It's due tomorrow and i'm just happy that i'm done. I usually never leave things to thhe last minute, but i ahve had no time for anything recently. As i mentioned before my boss got hurt so i've been putting in a lot of hurs at the deli. Next week i am wrking like 60 some odd hours, and going to class. I bet you i am going to hate that place after next week. I am already tired of it. It is so hard to do the same exact thing every day, for the same people at the same times, and not go crazy. I hate to complain so much, but i am used to having a decent social life, and between going to school and work, there has been no room for one. Luckily i had the day off today, but like i said i spent it writing an essay. I should have done a little bit every night when i got off work. That's easy to say know, because after working 10-12 hours at that place, the last thing i wanted to do was homework. I'm going to have to get used to it though, becase the semester just started, and i'm sure ther is lot's of homework to come. Well I'm done with this, I'm gonna go out and chill with my friends for a little bit.

busted

9:00 pm
2/7/08
my room


The other day, my boss, who is about sixtey years old, left the deli to get some veggies. The phone rand about a half an hour later, it was a customer and they said they were at wladbaums, and he had slipped and fallen in one of the aisles. They had to call an ambulance, because he said he blacked out, his legs were numb, and he had a concussion. He was admitted into the hospital today, finally, after over twenty four hours of being in the emergency room. I think he plans on sueing the store, because he claims to have slipped on a wet floor, and the store looked like a bomb went off. I don't blame him either, he's always talking about how he could never retire, because businsess was to bad, now he may have a chance to. It's funny all the customers that have been coming in for the last couple of days have been joking around saying they are going to have to rename Waldbaums "Weinisch's" (Thats my boss's last name, and the name of the deli). It's really not that unrealistic, because i think i judge would sybothize with a man his age who sustained those kind of injuries, simply because of someone else's carelessness. I don't know we'll have to see what happens. I'll keep you posted, haha like anyone cares, i just have nothing better to write about.

Defeat

6:39 pm
2/4/08
Computer Room

Well The Patriots lost. The Giants played a great game, and they wore Tom Brady down. I wouldn't have minded that much, it's just a football game, but i lost a good amount of money because of them. When i came into the deli this morning, a little hungover, there were articlas all over the deli, telling of the Giants victory, just to rub it in my face. A lot of customers came in and said to me "how 'bout them Patriots?". So it was a long day of poor sportsmanship, but not on my part. All I know is that i am not the only person who is still upset about the loss. The Pats were going to have a completely perfecct season, 19-0, and that would have put them in the books as the best NFL team to ever play. It's okay though 18-1 is nothing to complain about, only one other team every accomplished that, and that was the Dolphins. I had a good time watchng the game, even though my team lost. My friend has a monster of a television, and it's also HD, so i watched football as i never have before. There was plenty of food and drinks, so it was one hell of a superbowl party. As you probobaly assumed, I was the only Patriots fan there, so that also made for lot's of bets, and interesting conversation.

GOOO PATRIOTS!!!

Well it's Superbowl SUnday, and i just got off work. It was an intersesting day, considering i worked all day with a Patriot's jersey on. I didn't realize how much new yorkers hated the Patriots. At first i was just getting some dirty looks, and that wasn't to bad, but than things started getting a little hairy. When i asked one guy what i could get for him, he said "nothing with that shirt on!" At first i thought he was joking, and i laughed a little bit, but the expression on his face didn't change "I'm not joking, I don't want you to wait on me", i guess he was supersticious. As one man was leaving the store, i wished him a good day. He stopped in his tracks, turned to me, and ststed that "I should be shot for wearing that jersey", that was unesessary. There were little things here and there that were uncalled for, like people telling me i would be lucky to make it home alive. Oh well it's all in good fun, right?
I'm going over to a friends house in a little bit, to watch the game drink a few "beverages" and eat like a pig. Hopefully the Pats pull another one off, i have a good amount of money riding on this game, and i really don't want to lose it. It's gonna be a great game, and whoever wins it isn't gonna win it easily...GO PATRIOTS!!!

painful

9:25 am
2/01/08
Intro to computing class

I'm sitting in class right now, and the professor has been lecturing for an hour and a half now. You're probably asking what he could talk about for that long, distribution, and the history, of computers. All i want right now is a cigarrette, i am falling asleep right now. You're thinking right now, well you should be paying attention, but everything he says goes in one ear and right out the other. So i might as well get my blog done, right? When i get home, i plan on doing the essay, so if i can get this done right now, it would help a lot. I wonder when we are going to get a break, because i am litaraly about to fall asleep, my eyes are tearing, i'm so bored. The only thing keeping me awake is writing this blog. I have to give the Professor credit though, he's been talking for this long without looking at any notes, or pausing, and to him this stuff seems pretty interesting. Okay he just told us we could take a break, so I'm out.

Finally

8:00 pm
1/31/08
my room

Finally it's thursday, and i have a friday and saturday off...kinda. I still have to get up for class, pretty early(not as early as i do for English). Tomorrow I have a computer class, which I'm not really looking foward to, since i'm not very good with computers, which is odd considering i grew up in the technical age.
On a different not, I came home to find out my Aunt Mickey passed away. I wasn't really close to her, she was a sort of distant realative. So i will probably spend my days off in and out of wakes/a funeral...fuuun. I know it sounds horrible, but i really need the time to do homework. I have the essay for english due tuesday, and i also have an essay for psychology due next saturday, which requires a decent amount of research. Oh well as The Stones say, you can't always get what you want. I'm going to cut this blog short, so i can get started on my English essay.

shot

I'm soo shot right now, i just pulled a twelve hour shift. All i want to do right now is go to sleep. Twelve hours of being at work is bad enough, but what made it worse was the fact that it was dead all day. Whats that's mean? That means Lot's of time was spent starring at the clock which just makes time go by slower. Finally, after hours upon hours of agony, it was five minutes to six o'clock. Than as i was about kill the lights, about five customers strolled in(onto my freshly mopped floor), the first three only wanted coffee, but the fourth wanted a sandwich with liverwurst and Munster cheese, which made a mess out of the slicer i had JUST cleaned. After i made that sandwich I once again cleaned the slicer, only to find out that i needed to cut some cold cuts. Not just any cold cuts either, it was Roast Beef, liverwurst, and Salsilito, the three messiest meats you can ask for in a deli. that's not the best part though...the customer only wanted .10 of a pound of each. I love my job.

another day the deli

8:32 pm
1/29/08
My room

You ever see the movie Groundhog Day? Well that's my life...as well as most other people. I go to the deli everyday, do the same thing everyday, and see the same people. I come in at seven or eight in the morning, make coffee for people, most of which act as if their parents never taught them manners, make egg sandwich's, and put up with my co-workers. When I'm not busy, I'm bored out of my mind, and it takes everything i have in me not to eat everything in sight(because everything there is delicious). Than around 2 pm some of the clerks go home, and it's just me and the boss, waiting to close. This is the worst part of the day. At least in the hustle and bustle of the morning hours, time flies. From 2-6 it's virtually dead, which leaves time for only one thing, starring at the clock. Oh well, i guess that's why I have to educate myself, so I don't have to spend the rest of my life waking up, groaning, and muttering "damn, another day at the deli".

Trouble at the work place

7:23 pm
1/28/08
My room

You ever here the phrase "It's not what you do that gets noticed, it's what you don't do"? Well i hate that, and it's not just a catchy little phrase, it's absolutely true. The deli that i work at is family owned, and they are all completely out of their minds. I'll start with my boss (I'm going to keep names out of this), he's sixty years old an an alcoholic. He's actually not that crazy, in fact he's the only one in that family i actually respect. His daughter is probably the closest to clinically insane(aside from his wife, but she doesn't work there). I'm convinced she's evil, but she's so nice, or at least she appears to be. Than there's the son, and he's an interesting individual. He was in the navy for twelve years, and he ended up breaking his back in the line of duty. This injury, which was never corrected until recently, keeps him a miserable person, and he takes it out on everyone around him. That gives you an idea of the family, now let's move on to the clerks. There is me of course, Clerk A, and Clerk B(remember no names). Now Clerk A is the only person there i like, because they're the only person there not putting on an act. Clerk B however...well let's just say we butt heads constantly. For some reason, which I'm unaware of, she can't stand me. She runs around talking behind my back, snitching on me for little things, but she's sooo nice to my face. It's High school all over again. At least I didn't have to spend 50-60 hours a week in High school.

5:35 pm
1/27/08
Living Room

I'm watching a documentary on the National Geographic Channel, about prison. As i watch more and more, i can't help but wonder. I wonder if the Government tries to overcrowd prisons. The Correctional industry is a multi-billion dollar industry, employing everyone from Correctional Officers, to the contractors that build the facilities. Would it be that far out to think that the government may possibly be allowing drugs to flow through our borders, so poor minorities get arrested by the DEA( a massive governmental agency, which employs thousands), and sent to already over crowded prisons? Now why would the government possibly want to overcrowd the prisons? To build more of course! They hire private contractors to build the prisons, or maybe they aren't so private(think Dick Cheney, and Halliburton...why are we in Iraq again?). After the Prison is built, hundreds of people are needed to run it. It's kinda scary, because as I've been writing this, I've been wondering if my computer will be monitored, because of what I've said. Which is totally legal, thanks to the USA Patriot Act. If I was to be monitored, it would be totally legal(not constitutional, funny how those are two different things) for me(or any of you) to be labeled an "Enemy Combatant" and sent to Guantanamo Bay, and be incarcerated for any amount of time, without anyone knowing where I am. This is all due to the Military Commission Act. If you don't believe me i suggest you read The End of America, by Naomi Wolf. Sooo if i happen to go missing, you know where I may be.

Just another day in the life

2:15 pm
1/26/08
My Room

This morning I had my first day of Psychology. I took more notes in that three hour class than i think i have in any class in my educational career(which really surprised me, considering it was the first day). It's definitely going to be an interesting class, full of discussion. Today we did an overview of the entire first chapter of the textbook. It's going to cost a small fortune to buy textbooks for my classes. I knew i would be buying books, but i certainly did not expect to pay one hundred to one hundred and fifty dollars a book. You gotta do what you gotta do though, right?At least that's what i keep telling myself. I already have an essay due on February 9, on animal research. It's not the most interesting topic, but I'll put my own little spin on it, which i often try to do in many of my works, while still maintaining the main topic, or question.
On a different note, my little sister got back from the hospital yesterday afternoon(shortly after i submitted my previous blog), she had an infection in her throat. It was at a degree of seriousness that called for emergency surgery, in which a surgeon made two incisions behind her tonsils. They didn't suture the lacerations, in order to allow the buildup to drain...pretty gross, i apologize. Now that i probably grossed someone out, my work is done for the day(at least in English), and i need to move on to some research, to begin my psychology essay.

early release

1/25/08
12:11 pm
Living room

Today i had intro to computing, at 8:00 am. The morning was started off with some crazy lady who wouldn't sit down, because apparently she had "multiple deceases" that seemed to all affect her neck. She claimed the school was supposed to accommodate her needs for a stand up station, so she wouldn't have to strain her neck. When the professor instructed her to sit down and keep her voice down, she stormed out claiming injustice, and she would "be back". She never returned.
Well anyway, the class is from 8:00 to 11:50 am, 4 wonderful hours of sitting in front of a computer. Just as the nicotine in my body, due to my habit of smoking "cowboy killers" ( one habit in which i intend to kick soon), started to act up, the professor cut the class short. I didn't really mind though, I'm not much of a computer person, as i think I've noted several times. So i moved my self to the public safety "hut", had a mug shot taken, and received my SCCC Student ID card. On the way home i stopped off at work to fix myself some lunch (I work in a deli, by the way). I got home, ate my Ham and American cheese sandwich, and than fed my nicotine habit once more. After about a half an hour of digestion, i started my daily workout, which i won't delve into, i don't really want to bore you(That is if i haven't already). Than i took a shower and sat down with my laptop, and began my blog, and as of right now i am finishing it.

blogology 101

Well today was my first day as a college student, and this is my first blog. You know it's funny, I've been sitting here for ten minutes, staring at my first sentence, trying to figure out what to write, and I've realize the purpose of this assignment is to help us articulate our thoughts. I've had a small taste of college, and already I've noticed a dramatic change in the educational approach. Back when i was enrolled in high school, i had the passion for learning that i still posses today, but i felt, no i actually knew the curriculum wasn't an effective way of teaching students. The human mind is self sufficient and complex, so how can you put a student in a strictly bracketed environment, such as high school, and expect them to succeed? The answer is...you can't. I believe that in order to achieve a higher level of education, you must first get in touch with your inner academic, and expand your mind, and for you John Lennon fans, i don't mean with LSD or mushrooms. What I mean is this exact assignment, mindless writing that is really not so mindless. Forgive me if this doesn't make sense, I've been up since 4:30, and worked 12 hours, so my brain could quite possibly be just as tired as my feet.